My hesitation to buy or not to buy

It seems to always happen to me that when I go shopping I see something priced more than I am willing to pay, and oh, it's disappointing! Yes, a quite pricey item that really makes me mad enough to actually go to lengths as to going beyond my means just to have it-if I can't have it, it hurts; my feelings and if I have it, it still hurts me; financially. I have had that happened to me a number of times. Well, sometimes if I am just not willing to spend the money, I try to hold off. You see, I have to take my time with deciding whether to buy it or not to buy it. That happens a lot when I am on a tight budget. So I go home first thinking about it; have it on my mind until the time I come back and get it. Only it usually disappears just when I finally decided to purchase it. That is the thing that gets me. In the end I have to regret why I let it go when I had my chance. It reminds me of when you have a chance you better take it because that may be your only chance at such. Just like with this saying that goes "strike while the iron is hot". When you have the opportunity you better take it because if you wait for later; later may never come. Indeed when it comes to deals and items you like, it is a now or never deal, it goes with love, too. People can be picky but for being so picky they end up with partners they didn't want before...LOL. They are only catching their tail...LOL. When I shop I have that trouble. I can't often decide and when I decide it is already too late because the item is no where to be found; somebody actually bought it-I get shock. Oh, isn't it awful to be eyeing on an item then it disappears before you can afford it. Dosn't that get you down when you want such item so bad? Ah...with me; I kinda get silly over those things, I guess that is part of my being a shopaholic...LOL.